Ghostdancing amoungst the sleeping
Dreaming
Wishing
Moving to the Internal music
The void between the notes, plays the melody so sweetly
You are the void that beckons my attention
May I let these attachments fall from grace with grace
Embracing the song and dance of the heart
A silver orb extends into my physical being
Watching with waiting
Praying with patience
Dance Dance Dance
Ghost
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Changing
Life is constantly in a flow
Like a river's current, the essence continues to maneuver
Water quenches the thirst
cuts thru the earth
gives and takes life
Respect and Honor the flow
Watch the current
Ease into the stream, follow the source to ocean
Each bend brings new awareness
Relax into the fall line
Like a river's current, the essence continues to maneuver
Water quenches the thirst
cuts thru the earth
gives and takes life
Respect and Honor the flow
Watch the current
Ease into the stream, follow the source to ocean
Each bend brings new awareness
Relax into the fall line
Monday, August 27, 2007
the Moon
I see the moon rising in the eat, a corn colored sphere, reflecting to the earth, the two goddess unite thru my being. Soon I will see the earths shadow dance across the face of the moon - For it is under the spot light that the deepest shadows are cast.
I am a woman, designed to feel the call and cycles of life. Honor these cycles and rhythms allows me to relax and be.
As much as I honor the moon, and her pull on my body, I am drawn and pulled to the earth. The Water goddess beckons me to sip from her loins. The Winds plays in my hair and invites my eyes to follow the flight of a falling leaf.
Seasons moving thru my existence. I have been created by my own soul ans essence. Watching with an inner calm, gentle voice, and strong will - I see us as we are. ?Here This Now Breathe Feel
The moon
I am a woman, designed to feel the call and cycles of life. Honor these cycles and rhythms allows me to relax and be.
As much as I honor the moon, and her pull on my body, I am drawn and pulled to the earth. The Water goddess beckons me to sip from her loins. The Winds plays in my hair and invites my eyes to follow the flight of a falling leaf.
Seasons moving thru my existence. I have been created by my own soul ans essence. Watching with an inner calm, gentle voice, and strong will - I see us as we are. ?Here This Now Breathe Feel
The moon
My oh My
My oh my....
Over the last few hours I have been able to figure out many ah-ha's!!! Thanks for knowing that I needed to rest last night. Upon arriving home I felt empty. I knew I could go back to the party, but I decided to let myself feel lonely and empty. It has been quite the process. I realize that I do not accept some of my feelings as they arise. My body is telling me to 'take it easy honey' The only time I was allowed to take it easy and rest was when I was sleeping or sick - so my ego remembers this as a pattern that works - so I create it over and over. So, I am honoring my body and resting on Sunday - hee hee
The only thing I can do is be with me right now. AS I dig deeper into these core beliefs I have found that I have been supressing many emotions over the years. I know that I could feel my absent father and my mother filled her emptiness with children and activities. I witnessed her and my dad fighting behind closed doors. As a child I was punished for showing my true feelings and sharing my true ideas. These emotions were quickly supressed and conformed into a myriad of socially acceptable ideas. I developed ways to be imperfect because my family valued only God as perfect and humans as sinful creatures. Not truly thinking or believing I was imperfect, I began to take on behaviors that would be tolerable to my family. I created a socially acceptable problem (disordered eating patterns) that meant I still needed to look to others for help. I know the food was not the problem - See there never was a problem, I just tried to fit in the best I could with the family my soul chose. Then, still not listening to my inner voice, that lovely voice by the way, I created other ways to be "wrong" - thru drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, cleaning, exercising, etc... All these things to fill a void which I created to fit in - to try to be a part of the world. Upon recognition of false fillers, these traits have tried to hold fast and prove they are the only way, the others are right - you are wrong, blah blah blah blah blah!!!! Little tid bits of internal dialog which brought me away from feeling and being - so much of which I began to only live out in the game - forgetting about way lies within - a beautiful stillness...
A shift in my view of self has stirred the muck of my life to the surface. I see the dirty water as a simple mixture of the lovely earth which I created and the flow of life in which I am.
I could go on and on to with examples of how I made myself conform to other's constructs and ideals. I have been trying to please mother and father figures in all other areas of my life.
I am ready to let go of the game. It has been fun. Time and time again I have tried to get out of it by pushing it away. So, okay, the game exists - no questions here. Now is the time to watch the game be played as I sit back and gently place my piece into play....
love to all -
--
~Gianna
"Be free spirited, full hearted, and daring minded"
I am trying to get over a cold. What does this mean - get over, as if it were an obstacle, a small bump - I see it and receive it as a gift to learn how to nurture myself back into health. To listen to the other voices just soft enough that my true voice rings from the song - a light harmony - an internal calm - union.
Over the last few hours I have been able to figure out many ah-ha's!!! Thanks for knowing that I needed to rest last night. Upon arriving home I felt empty. I knew I could go back to the party, but I decided to let myself feel lonely and empty. It has been quite the process. I realize that I do not accept some of my feelings as they arise. My body is telling me to 'take it easy honey' The only time I was allowed to take it easy and rest was when I was sleeping or sick - so my ego remembers this as a pattern that works - so I create it over and over. So, I am honoring my body and resting on Sunday - hee hee
The only thing I can do is be with me right now. AS I dig deeper into these core beliefs I have found that I have been supressing many emotions over the years. I know that I could feel my absent father and my mother filled her emptiness with children and activities. I witnessed her and my dad fighting behind closed doors. As a child I was punished for showing my true feelings and sharing my true ideas. These emotions were quickly supressed and conformed into a myriad of socially acceptable ideas. I developed ways to be imperfect because my family valued only God as perfect and humans as sinful creatures. Not truly thinking or believing I was imperfect, I began to take on behaviors that would be tolerable to my family. I created a socially acceptable problem (disordered eating patterns) that meant I still needed to look to others for help. I know the food was not the problem - See there never was a problem, I just tried to fit in the best I could with the family my soul chose. Then, still not listening to my inner voice, that lovely voice by the way, I created other ways to be "wrong" - thru drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, cleaning, exercising, etc... All these things to fill a void which I created to fit in - to try to be a part of the world. Upon recognition of false fillers, these traits have tried to hold fast and prove they are the only way, the others are right - you are wrong, blah blah blah blah blah!!!! Little tid bits of internal dialog which brought me away from feeling and being - so much of which I began to only live out in the game - forgetting about way lies within - a beautiful stillness...
A shift in my view of self has stirred the muck of my life to the surface. I see the dirty water as a simple mixture of the lovely earth which I created and the flow of life in which I am.
I could go on and on to with examples of how I made myself conform to other's constructs and ideals. I have been trying to please mother and father figures in all other areas of my life.
I am ready to let go of the game. It has been fun. Time and time again I have tried to get out of it by pushing it away. So, okay, the game exists - no questions here. Now is the time to watch the game be played as I sit back and gently place my piece into play....
love to all -
--
~Gianna
"Be free spirited, full hearted, and daring minded"
I am trying to get over a cold. What does this mean - get over, as if it were an obstacle, a small bump - I see it and receive it as a gift to learn how to nurture myself back into health. To listen to the other voices just soft enough that my true voice rings from the song - a light harmony - an internal calm - union.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
in all
Loving life and living in liberty
Divine beauty and grace in a single petal
in a dozen roses
in a communal garden
Holy truth and majesty in a single raindrop
in a lightning thunderstorm
in a land quaking huricane
Joy resides in the silence of a loving heart
Bliss finds shelter in the compassionate soul
Divine beauty and grace in a single petal
in a dozen roses
in a communal garden
Holy truth and majesty in a single raindrop
in a lightning thunderstorm
in a land quaking huricane
Joy resides in the silence of a loving heart
Bliss finds shelter in the compassionate soul
mudita
sympathetic joy
Oh to tell you I love you
the love bounds forth, frothing in ecstacy
Let us share these emotions
Let us jump into a relation of glee
Happiness rings the circle of truth
ever spinning with smiles
Passionately kissing and telling
eachother
this is of the true divine
Oh to tell you I love you
the love bounds forth, frothing in ecstacy
Let us share these emotions
Let us jump into a relation of glee
Happiness rings the circle of truth
ever spinning with smiles
Passionately kissing and telling
eachother
this is of the true divine
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